My luckiest day~Min-dependence Day & St. Patrick's Dayđ
2 years ago, with -$150 in my bank account & 2 suitcases, I escaped Texas, QAnon, Domestic Violence & SA.
I thought that December 3, 2020 was the day I escaped; but it was just the beginning. That was the day I left my husband forever, leaving the man who rehospitalized me 2 days after lung surgery. My best friend of 15 years, Stephanie and her husband offered me a place to stay in what she called their âsanctuary homeâ. Less than 90 days later, I was sexually assaulted, but NOT raped, waking to find bruising in the shape of hand & fingerprints on the inside of both of my thighs. That night, I fled Texas for the final time, homeless, with only 2 suitcases and a bank account that had -$150 in it.
Stephanie & I had met at the only social circle available to Texas girls, church. That may normally be a good place to meet people, but Gateway Church in Southlake, Texas that had gone full QAnon is another matter entirely. You might recognize the lead pastor & founder, Robert Morris. After attending Amy Comey Barrettâs Rose Garden superspreader event, he was on stage preaching, maskless, that same Sunday. Thatâs the extend of his âchristianâ love. Truly selfless, isnât he?
During the 15 years that I attended Gateway, it changed drastically as it grew larger and richer. Initially, I thought The Matrix references were being included in sermons as a way for the pastors to use a pop culture reference to illustrate a scriptural teaching, similar to the rock-style music instead of traditional hymns. Then, they started teaching The Matrix as thought it WAS scripture! Thatâs when I started walking out. I was raised a Jehovahâs Witness & my cult spidey-senses were tingling. But, I didnât know that I was involved in a QAnon church until I met Jim Stewartson in November 2020 and he invited me to join his volunteer group, The Thinkin Project. Jim shared how the ARG technology he helped develop had been weaponized to traumatize & enslave members into QAnon against America.
Jim, Dr. Steven Hassan and Dave Troy lit my path to freedom with the simple truths shared in this TedXMidAtlantic, QAnon Dismantled, recorded only the month before I joined TTP. But sadly, exceptionally smart men made a very stupid mistake when they trusted infiltrator and lead suicide troll, Desiree Kane.
During the spring of 2021, Jim had been doxed (the first time Iâd heard that term) and his family threatened, necessitating his stepping back from The Thinkin Project. Initially, Iâd thought that Desiree Kane was the perfect choice to take the lead, she looked great on paper - a journalist as we struggled with messaging, an âactivistâ embedded at Standing Rock & a volunteer coordinator, she seemed ideal. But, as soon as Desi-boo took the reins, TTP became siloed and silent, stopped outreach and making a difference for survivors like myself. Desi-boo celebrated as almost all of the 500 volunteers fell away, saying the group was too large for her to manage as a volunteer coordinator while she was âjust a volunteer, tooâ. We needed those 500 volunteers and many, many more if we were going to reach survivors of QAnon.
The true volunteers of TTP were incredibly kind, talented, patriotic & dedicated. They saved the lives of countless would-be counterprotestors on January 6th, warning them to stay away from the #TrumpTrap. Then, theyâd helped me to save own my life by helping me move 1500 miles to be safe from QAnon & domestic abuse. Sadly, those volunteers were quickly replaced by the Frens of Desi-boo. Frens like Nicole Chenelle, who crowed to everyone on her first zoom with us that she is a fluent Russian speaker who lived in Russia and studied fascism. I guess it helps to study the ideology when youâre a Nazi. đ¤ˇđťââď¸#Fashtivist
In July 2021, Desi-boo offered & me the âCommunity Managerâ position with âherâ group, but shortly afterwards, I became the target of the suicide trolls who have now been cyberstalking me for 2 years. On the night of August 24, 2021, 2 of my dearest friends in TTP, GramsofTwidder & Bubbles, asked for help because they were alarmed at the mental health crisis I was in having learned that I had a plan to end my life after Iâd survived abuse & cults. Nicole the Nazi responded to their fears, telling me via DM to âcut the shitâ, âstfu and kill yourselfâ & threatening that she was going to SWAT me. Further goading a suicidal person doesnât normally save them, but pushes them over the edge. My plan had been a bullet into my brain as I drove off a pier, giving me a final view of my beloved ocean before I took eternal rest beneath her waves. Driving to my Dr that morn, I had to drive over 5 bridges and wanted to turn the wheel off of each one as Nicoleâs words âSTFU and kill yourselfâ echoed. When I did get to my doctors office at 8:30 that morn, he immediately hospitalized me for my own safety. I came out of the Psych hospital only to find that my support network, the chosen family Iâd built online during 20 years of disability had all been lied to & told to block me by a âwell written character assignationâ as one friend described it. You can read it all here, thanks to GREAT OPSEC by Jayphantom42, who told me I have terrible OPSEC. Maybe cuz I wasnât trying to hide anything, Jay?
There is some truth, #1-I have a felony from 2006 which I fully satisfied long ago. #2-Two friends from TTP did help me financially, GramsofTwidder sent me $200 when I first arrived from Texas, when she learned my bank account was in the negative. She also sent some other things through the mail, which I was later accused of âdrug traffickingâ from one legal state to another, even though it wasnât me who sent them. In June 2021, cath_cares sent me $300 saying "let your friends help you" after she learned I was suffering with a Shingles outbreak on my face but I couldnât afford the doctor, hospital or medicine. #3- It is true that the Care package I was preparing for Grams as she suffered with COVID was delayed because I was waiting on my payday. I refunded the $40 that Jess & Lulu had donated as soon as I was out of the hospital and still tried to send it to Grams. She refused the delivery and has refused my offer to repay the money she sent. Desi-boo, on the other hand, never even checked in on Grams while she had COVID to see if she was okay, despite Grams being on Oxygen & bedbound BEFORE contracting the virus. #4-I was gifted a used laptop while I still living in Texas, but everyone within TTP knew it & knew exactly who had given it to me because I thanked her multiple times, in multiple chats & on Twitter. Before that, Iâd been working on my old android phone. The only problem with the gifted laptop was that it needed to be plugged into a monitor basically turning it into a desktop anyway, and it was heavy, but I lugged it with me from Texas. In fact, I still have that laptop, isnât it so weird that Desi-boo and Frens wouldnât want to look at it as part of an after action report? Almost like they knew they were lying.
With my support network both online and in real life gone theyâve continued to isolate me, flagging any account I made as âban evasionâ, though my only goal was to stay in touch with the few supporting friends who had not blocked me, like AnonyMom who was on the phone with me every day of my last Psych hospitalization in July 2022. Despite my leaving Twitter over a year ago, Desi-boo @mrsocial , Nicole the Nazi @nicole_chenelle , Matt Donovan (too many sock accounts to mention, but his main was @amagicwindow) and Jayphantom42 have doxed me multiple times on Twitter and still troll this Substack, continuing their wedging efforts whenever I dare to comment on any of my friendâs articles.
So, on this 2nd Min-dependence Day, I have 3 lucky messages for Desi-boo & Frens!
đ#1-Iâm not going anywhere.
đ#2-The truth MIGHT set you free if you speak truth before going to prison.
đ#3-The luck of the Irish does NOT extend to Nazis or Frens of Nazis. đđď¸
#Fashtivist #QAnon #Cult #SuicideAwareness #NeverForgetJanuary6th #MentalHealth #TTP #IGotOut